Super Sized Series

 New Beginnings  Part One

 





Moving On by Lynn White

They said that you never go back
once you leave home.
I was sure I would
and I promised
my mother
as we packed the big black trunk.

I was homesick and in tears those
first few days in college.
‘Hay fever’, I said.
In September!
I promised
I’d come home at the weekend

And I did, I did as just I’d promised.
But I didn’t want to go.
Didn’t want to leave
all my new friends
and all the new
possibilities,
though it was nice to meet old ones again.

I had lots to tell them about my new home,
my new friends and my new place.
And about all the excitement.
I planned for old friends
to visit my new home
and they did
eventually.
And then the new went to visit the old.

But ‘they’ were right to say that
you never go back home
once you leave.
I never did.
Not really.
I never 
went back 
to stay.

A New Season by Judy Lorenzen

You invited me to help you set your irrigation wells,
early evening under stars,
end of August, the cornstalks tall,
plums along the roadside, purpling,
and the trees longing to turn their autumn coppers.
We were 18 and 19 years old.
I walked with you as you set each tube.
Overwhelmed, I stopped to be still in the moment,
because the moon had come out and beamed down on us—
you looked angelic in the moonlight’s covering.
The well pumped out the evening’s song,
as the moon shimmered off of the irrigation water.
The water rushed rhythmically through the ditch,
down each row through the tubes.
You asked me if we were in heaven, and I laughed.
I still remember the harmonies of that night,
the crickets, katydids, and cicadas, rushing well water,
the sound of the pumps,
rustling corn leaves in that field off Highway 30.
I felt the callouses on your hand when you grabbed mine
and told me I should marry you—
promising we’d always be rich in green fields and grasses
and in the music of the cicadas and rains,
and every night under the big sky,
we could gaze at the Milky Way together.
You told me if I married you,
I’d be marrying this countryside, too.
You finished setting your pumps,
and we got in your truck to go to the next field.
I turned the radio on, and Karen Carpenter was singing
“We’ve Only Just Begun.”
You told me I’d love the harvest season.
I asked about the winters on the farm.
You said the snows would come,
but I’d never be cold.
I said yes.


The Best We Can Do by Arlene Levine

A rose bush wilting in July heat
does not blame the earth, lets its roots
search deep for the waters of life.
After its surge of golden glory
the bare oak does not accuse
the winter’s frigid air, invites
the wind to sing hymns through
its naked boughs.
 
The best we can do is to allow,
learn to love the changing
landscape of our lives.
Episodes of dark and doubt
are unexpected guests, asking only
to be welcomed for a while,
these gods in disguise
who guide us home.

Two poems by Sharon Waller Knutson
 
After I find your lifeless body on the floor 

For days the sky grows dark 
and pours buckets of rain
on the thirsty ground, 

I curl under the covers 
in a fetal position
awash in a sea of sleep

Frozen in fear of the future
 and gripped
in the jaws of grief.

Today the sun shines brightly
 and I watch a rabbit roll
 in a blanket of green grass.

In Limbo

When my husband’s soul
floats out of his body
and leaves me on earth,

I beg him to come back
and get me and take me
with him to the Hereafter,

I am ready to shed my body
and material possessions
to be with him as we hold hands

And reunite with long lost
relatives but he does not listen
and I am still in this crazy world.

You still have a purpose,
our son says, but all I feel
is sadness and sorrow. 


Summer in January by Joan Leotta
(Inspired by a poem by Lorette Luca—Winter in June)

 A world upside down.(for me)
below the equator, kigo shifts—
summer’s heat fills January days.
 
If my father had moved us
to Melbourne Australia
I could have had
a merry go round pull
into the drive on my birthday,
like my June-birthday
cousin enjoyed.

Instead, my friends slogged
through snow to drink
hot chocolate before
games and cake.
In Melbourne, no one
would have left early
for fear of icy roads.
But if my birthday came
in summer, after the party,
I would not have
been able to go out
to our backyard and
feel the crunch of my
skate blades digging
into the ice in the rink
my father built.


In Melbourne,
the setting January sun
would not turn my
skate shavings
into sprays of tiny
diamonds as I practiced
turns and twirls.
 
Thinking on these things,
I no longer envy those
with summer birthdays,
whenever, wherever
summer comes.
I'm content to be a winter baby.


Two poems by Laurie Kuntz

To Be Born On a Full Moon Eclipse
 Sept 2025

A harvest moon, a blood moon,
a full moon eclipse.
It is the eclipse that  will stand out
on the marked day of your arrival
a pocket of shadows coming between
what is neither a planet or a star
but when it passes it uncovers the light
that is always there for the sharing.

Haiku 
In the sea 
of broken lives
floats a threadbare promise.

Haiku by Lauren McBride

January bills
still using
Christmas stamps


Three poems by Joanne Durham

Anticipation  

Sages warn, Live in the present,
longing, hunger can do you in,
my Mom in her last days
paced room to room 
with walker and oxygen,
there’s nothing to look forward to.

Clutched in the grip
of a global pandemic, 
the sonogram of that child-to-be
releases a smile so deep 
I think it’s from my own womb 
not my daughter’s,
breaks my fast on joy,
spreads its feast across my face.

She carries tomorrow 
in her belly - yes, I’ll take 
rapture-in-the-making.

First published in To Drink from a Wider Bowl, Evening Street Press 

Everything

was built in– 
clothes bureau, Murphy bed,
in that studio apartment   
on Treat Street, the first place
I lived alone. 

You could run your fingers 
over the gentle curve 
of the hallway shelf
and ride its wave. Everything 
else in my life stood still,

even the plant in its glazed pot
took the weekly drink I gave it
silently. I waited 
for the tide to rise, sweep in 
something of my own.
First published in One Art, ©Joanne Durham

Next Time

Kneeling to scrub the floor, the tangy smell 
of vinegar suffuses me, my rag loosens 

tiny nibs of dirt ground into wood. They rise 
like bubbles eager for release. There’s pleasure 

in seeing the grains regain their lightness. 
Such a long time it took me to learn 

no elf or genie would tend to it. 
Even the garden I somehow expected 

to keep its shape, the rhododendron to purple
year after year without pruning or feeding. The ivy, 

leaves poking along the side of the house, 
seemed just a casual visitor until one day 

I saw how it was tangled all through the azaleas, 
smothering their roots. I still think 

that there’s another chance 
for everything. I’d have more kids next time, 

wouldn’t be afraid to scramble down the mountain 
to the hidden hollow of the Pacific coast.

It would be some different version of myself 
who accompanies the old me only as far 

as the ticket counter, bids me a good journey 
as I clutch my sagging suitcase, 

grab the railing with the other hand 
and hoist myself onto the outbound train. 

First published in Hole in the Head Review, 

Super-sized Series

 Happy New Year

  

San Miguel  de Allende

New Year’s Day, El Centro
San Miguel de Allende, GTO Mexico
by Wilda Morris

Four young men, college age,
eat pizza and drink
cola. They laugh loudly
at each other’s jokes,
ignore the greyed
barefoot woman 
who shuffles to their table,
wrinkled hand out
as do the couples 
with eyes only for each other,
and everyone else she approaches.
I wonder how it feels 
to be so desperate,
so invisible.
I wonder if anyone wished her
Prospero año nuevo.






Four poems by Sharon Waller Knutson

Happy New Year

you say with a happy face.
But the prune face scowling at me
from the mirror says:
Who would be happy
about getting another year older?

I could swear just last year
I was that fresh faced school girl
in the picture on the mantel.
The girl so tall the boys rested
their heads on my shoulder
as we danced. So tall my head
touched the mark on the wall.

Now I reach the mark with my hands.
Did I take my calcium with breakfast?
I can’t remember. But I do recall the name
of the boy I asked to dance in sixth grade
and was surprised when Doug said yes
and put his head on my shoulder
then forgot my name as he grew
beyond my reach. Now he is gone,
a heart attack right before our 50th
High School Reunion.

I wish I could have been
that fresh faced school girl forever
until she waltzes in the room
and says in her school girl voice:
Happy New Year Grandma.
I smile and the prune smiles back.
Happy New Year, I say.

 

White Out

From Christmas Eve
to New Year’s Eve
the blizzard rages
like an angry animal
flinging the snow against
the garage and house
piling it up knee high
keeping us captive inside,
until the white powder
and pale sky become one.

On New Year’s Day

we split our last log
and burn it in the stove
and eat our last slice
of bread as the temperatures
drop and the snow ceases.
The sky turns blue and sunny
as a figure in a dark snow suit 
and cap appears in the yard.

Stiff as the icicles hanging
on the house, the woman stands
on a black ATV and zips
up and down our driveway
pushing the snow against
the trailer and the trees
plowing a path for us
to drive to the store
for gas and groceries.

I think back to the 1950s 
as machines carved a road
and built snow walls
so we could walk two miles
to school, our faces chafing,
our fingers and toes frozen
in cheap boots and mittens
in the frigid Montana air.

Portrait in Black and White

In his white wool sweater
and black slacks, mittens
and boots, Mr. Magpie
marches to the roof
of the garage and flaps
his wings like a conductor
in an orchestra. The warm
wind whistles like a clarinet
as it tosses Mr. Magpie
face first against the facia.
Singing soprano, he summersaults
to the roof of the house
where he toots the trombone
as the chinook creates
an ice sculpture
in the shade of the pine.

.
Absolution by Jayne Jaudon Ferrer
 
Like a kindly priest come to absolve us of our sins,
January arrives with arms spread wide,
chill winds blasting clean the blighted slates
of our dozen months just passed.
The new year’s a benevolent savior with
blind eye turned to failures and foibles,
deaf ear to grumbles and whines,
full cup firmly grasped in a hand
extended and offering hope.
As frosted breaths drift and dissipate
into a winter night,
so go our trials and transgressions
as we face, innocuous virgins once more,
whatever fate and our own stupidity
hold in store.
 
Three poems by Rachael Ikins


Solstice When Nobody Turned Off the Christmas Tree 

The night my Mother began her work of final dying. Sound of Music on CBS.
Teeth rattling sound-blitz for a woman who loved silence. Upstairs, bedroom door shut I couldn’t escape doe-a-deer-a-female-deer  

Never again, my eyes slide past its TV guide title, nervous as deer exposed in a winter thicket. Uneasiness follows me into sleep.

Purple and yellow, my mom, a pair of mating barn owls in a spruce tree, sky so clear it ached, teeth-cracking cold. A minute after midnight or two, when the long slow climb for light scrabbled horizon, those birds grabbed her. My eyes stung, knife to throat, I squinted.

Blue-black dark crunching with glitter. Her body spread in a recliner in the living room. I can’t explain it, but there it was, poured like batter. I touched her shoulder, her hair, kissed her face, gently slid her rings, wedding and one for her children. Each palm cupped an egg of warmth.

Heart alive in my throat, battering a path to my mouth.

Car coughed after such Solstice temperatures, Dogs and I climbed out after a three-day country weekend. Nobody turned off her Christmas lights. Katie meowed, carrier banged my thigh. Strange bird called from the hedge, bent me over, pain a spew in the stillness, those liquid notes.

Such pictures jostle against my eyes’ backs, force my lids open. It doesn’t matter I haven’t looked at the calendar or counted the 12 days of Christmas wrong- the puppy still has three toys waiting in her canine advent tree from Chewy.

Seven years have marched into the sun. I string deaths on a popcorn garland, 

Flag’s remnants shredded in winter winds. If a brother’s Christmas table has no room for a sister two days after their mother died, that’s divorce. 

Those years I gasped,
pain worse than death I thought, 
and kept walking.



New Years Day Looking over the Valley 

The clouds pause in their endless rush 
and tearing their hair to rest on my mountain
this late year’s morning.

They ease the belly down.
Sigh like a pregnant woman 
in her last months.

The fabrics from her dress drift and 
fold in layers around each branch 
and pine needle.

Everywhere, look!

It is a crowd of heavy women
dressed in white.
My back aches for them.


Previously published in my chapbook “Slideshow in the Woods” (Foothills Publishing) 
First prize winner NLAPW writing contest CNY branch


New Year’s Eve on Faith 

Snow shot through with spears of sunlight
Cloudy gusts that sparkle and dismay. We complain.

Just inside a thin grass barrier that protects 
their pores from freezing, plants ignore us. Aware, 
as we are not, 

each day lasts longer. Perhaps only by no more than seconds
but enough for one phaleonopsis to extend a green spike, 
a finger to touch a snowflake.

Fat geranium buds swell where yesterday 
there were none. 

Someone told me last fall to uproot them, to shake the dirt, 
hang them upside down from a rafter or to throw them in the trash. 
Next year you can buy new. 

It is almost 
      next year. 

Clouds shred like torn tissue. We see the same sun with 
which plants have been conversing all these gray December days,

all the overcast afternoons when we doubted, when we complained
of lack of colors, plants ignored us, yes,  in silent conversations 
with light prepared 
to reveal it.

Previously published in “I Scrub My Eyes” Benevolent Bird Press